Sitting here

I am sitting here as I do every year around this time wondering if I am ready for my missions trip.



Every year I go to RFKC (Royal Family Kids Camp) It's a camp for neglected and abused kids. I question myself whether I will be a good servant for the kids.



I am a Christian, not a good one, but I know who I belong to. I can't quote you bible verses, I can't pray out loud, and most of the time ok all the time I have a potty mouth. I take the easy way and probably disappoint God alot.



But I know deep down this is what I was meant to do. My calling and I believe this whole heartedly is to help kids. To help raise other peoples children. I have to believe this. Because I am not able to have children of my own. This is it. To give these children one week of fun and to show them God is with them and feels their pain.



Every Year I question this. Am I going to do more harm than good. Will I say the right thing? Will I be open to God? Will I let him in to help the kids? Am I strong enough? Will I let the past in and do harm. Not physical harm, but mental harm. If I let my past in will it effect me and how I treat the kids.



I love going to camp and I get rewarded everytime I see the children smile and play and forget their home life for the week or even for an hour. It lightens my heart. It gives me such joy. It breaks my heart.



So as you are sitting here reading my post, please pray for the children who are abused and neglected. Pray for the parents that they will get help. Pray for the foster parents. Pray for the volunteers of RFKC. Just PRAY.



As of this month there are over 6,000 children being abused in one county alone.